I still remember the times when I was very excited and happy about leaving India to do my MBA. I thought I was all set to start my journey in a new country all alone, least did I know how hard it would be on me ! The first 2-3 months were spent in getting used to the place and people. So it was a mix of emotions - excitement, insecurity and homesickness. The next 8-9 months were a roller coaster ride, life was full of pressure - assignments, classes and team meetings. I did not know when and how time passed by. After completing my MBA and a year out of India, I look back and see nothing but sleepless nights, untimely food, drastic weight loss and an MBA degree that is yet to fetch me a job. I was thinking of what life has given me and taken away from me in the past one year. And I must say, it has been an unforgettable year for both good and bad reasons.
The good being that I learnt about life the hard way. I now find myself more mature and emotionally stable. I learnt to sleep alone in my room :) and discovered new skills within myself. I got an opportunity to evaluate myself on a global platform and know what people think of me. I can now face hardship in life bravely and fight challenges with perseverance till I achieve my goal. I realised what I want in life and also what I owe to my dear ones. In short, the past one year has taught me more about life than about being a smart MBA graduate!
Coming to the not-so-good part of the journey, it is the change in me that I have been thinking of, for the past 2 days. I realised that loneliness and separation from loved ones has made me a totally different person. I feel I lost my old self, the person who was always cheerful and spreading happiness to people around her, the person who could never stop talking, the person who was full of life, the person who lived in the belief that her dream life will become reality some day. I now see myself as a quiet, lost, sad person who lacks energy and hunts for topics to talk. I spend most of my time alone, so its more thinking and less talking. I started this blog long ago with an intention of fighting this undesirable change in me but could not keep up to my goal of updating it regularly. I am scared that I will never be able to regain my old self again and it is the same thought that made me write this post today.
I might not have done a good job of summarizing my past year's journey but I think this is a good way to share my thoughts with friends and family so that I stay more connected with them. My only takeaway from this journey till date is that life is not a bed of roses, and the more you are pricked by thorns in your journey, the better your future will be!
I hope to write something more thoughtful in my next post! Until then, keep smiling :)
The good being that I learnt about life the hard way. I now find myself more mature and emotionally stable. I learnt to sleep alone in my room :) and discovered new skills within myself. I got an opportunity to evaluate myself on a global platform and know what people think of me. I can now face hardship in life bravely and fight challenges with perseverance till I achieve my goal. I realised what I want in life and also what I owe to my dear ones. In short, the past one year has taught me more about life than about being a smart MBA graduate!
Coming to the not-so-good part of the journey, it is the change in me that I have been thinking of, for the past 2 days. I realised that loneliness and separation from loved ones has made me a totally different person. I feel I lost my old self, the person who was always cheerful and spreading happiness to people around her, the person who could never stop talking, the person who was full of life, the person who lived in the belief that her dream life will become reality some day. I now see myself as a quiet, lost, sad person who lacks energy and hunts for topics to talk. I spend most of my time alone, so its more thinking and less talking. I started this blog long ago with an intention of fighting this undesirable change in me but could not keep up to my goal of updating it regularly. I am scared that I will never be able to regain my old self again and it is the same thought that made me write this post today.
I might not have done a good job of summarizing my past year's journey but I think this is a good way to share my thoughts with friends and family so that I stay more connected with them. My only takeaway from this journey till date is that life is not a bed of roses, and the more you are pricked by thorns in your journey, the better your future will be!
I hope to write something more thoughtful in my next post! Until then, keep smiling :)
